Tuesday 28 June 2011

the best i ever had this week

the best meal i ever had this week?...nando's
the best thing i've done this week?...to be able to discuss and achieve a beautiful conclusion
the other best thing this week?...i'm no more a GAA in DELL starting tomorrow (supposedly friday but i'm thinking of not coming to work tomorrow...hehehe)
the best person for this week?...Bawang
the supportive person for this week?.. Sapick
the cutest thing this week?...Aing (for crying her heart out loud)

Sunday 26 June 2011

love is...

all my life i have been asking the same question, "does love really exist?" part of me believed that it does, the other part doesn't. love is a commitment. one can love as many as they want to, as long as they can give their full commitment to each. love makes you believe in the impossible, love makes you sick..love makes you reach up to the sky and say that you can, even though you know that yo have failed before believing. love makes you cruel, as you become possessive, owning something that is not even yours. love makes you blind, as long as you believe that there's light in front of you, you'll just go through. even though you know at the end you'll fall and die. love makes you a fool,you want to be hurt and still believe that it is not true even though you have seen it with your eyes. in your heart, there's still faith to pull all the things together and make it a success, when there isn't any. love makes you dream, even though you know that the dream you dreamt about is only a nightmare in disguise..love is impossible, but we still believe in it..my love isn't an easy one and so is yours..

Saturday 25 June 2011

cerita kawan saya

saya ada kawan. dia biasa-biasa je orgnye.dia ade pakwe. pakwe dia pon biasa je. dh lame diorg kenal. dh nk dekat sedekad. tp pakwe kawan saya tu belom pon pinang kawan saya tu. saya risau gak, mana tau pakwe dia tu berubah hati ke dgn kwn saya.tapi kawan saya yakin pakwe dia x berubah hati lagi. cuma belum masa nya diorg kawen. tapi bila? sbb dh lame sgt dh diorg bersama. saya pon takot nk tny sbb saya hanya org yg memerhati. tp, saya tahu, kwn saya tu risau dan cemas juga bila saya suara kn pertanyaan itu. dia juga rasa yg pakwe dia dh mula berubah. begitu byk alasan yg pakwe dia bg utk melambatkan kawen. tapi kwn saya masih tabah dan sabar tunggu pakwe dia. saya pon tak tau smpai bila. tapi saya harap diorg kawen satu hari nnt. saya akan doakn mereka bersama selamanya.Amin.

Thursday 23 June 2011

rindu

sumpah saya rindu orang itu
saya tahu dia tak akan rindu saya
saya bukan siapa siapa di hati nya
saya cuma orang yang dia cari
bila dia rasa perlu untuk jumpa saya
tapi saya rasa
saya memang rindu dia
rindu yang amat sangat
sampai saya rasa
saya harus buang dia dari ingatan saya
tapi saya takut
kerna saya masih mahu dia

Wednesday 22 June 2011

live life to the fullest?

being away for some time makes me think..thinking of my life and what i should do with it..how do i handle my life? do i need to get a job that pays well so that i can travel wherever i want, buy what i want and do whatever i want? should i stop doing what i am doing now and start something new? should i stop seeing some people whom i think is giving me a hard time whenever i am close to them? should i consider my plans in marriage and living a life with one man for the rest of my life? should i just disappear and stay low for a while? should i ask God to take me now or am i not fit to be there with Him? what kind of life should i live now? have i ever hurt anyone on purpose? all these questions are usually questions that you would ask yourself whenever you are alone...whenever you think that life has done you more harm than good..but remember that it is you who choose how you want to live, not others.. just bare with it and i know you'll survive..

Tuesday 21 June 2011

panas, lapar dan tak bermaya

saya demam, lantas saya rasa panas..juga saya rasa lapar...tapi tekak tak berapa nk sedap...mkn pon x rasa eh...asyik minum melo jek...tp kn, mst bole kurus cmni...hehehehe...cepat2 baik demam...nnt bole g jln2 lagi...hehehe

Wednesday 15 June 2011

kenapa saya malas?

kenapa saya malas? agak-agak nya apa alasan untuk menjadi malas? sebenarnya xde alasan yang baik untuk malas...saya malas sebab saya memang MALAS...mungkin, ada sebab yang membantu untuk menjadi malas? mungkin...mungkin sebab saya telah sekian lama belajar dan otak mula menidakkan hakikat yang saya perlu habiskan Master ini? masih perlu menulis dan menulis sehingga thesis saya dapat memuaskan hati semua...perlu segera fikir yang umur sudah begitu lanjut tetapi tidak punya kerja tetap...mungkin ini membantut kan pemikiran dan menumpulkan minda untuk menulis lagi? mungkin...tapi itu semua kemungkinan yang kita ramalkan sendiri...kerana dengan memberi alasan, kita rasa lega...kita rasa puas...tetapi hakikatnya, kita masih di takuk lama, masih di situ, masih sendiri, masih tidak punya apa di dunia ini...saya berharap agar Tuhan tabahkan hati dan kuatkan iman saya untuk masih belajar dan habis kan apa yang telah saya mulakan...tolong doakan saya...amin..

Tuesday 14 June 2011

kusut
buat aku benci
benci pada hakikat
yang kau masih begitu
kalau masih ada
ruang untuk aku
di hati mu
aku pasti
cuba untuk
berada di situ
selamanya
tapi tolong
buang kusut
ini dahulu
kerana
aku sakit
untuk menghadapinya
sendiri...

Wednesday 1 June 2011

Kalau di izin Tuhan

kalau di izin kan Tuhan, saya mahu bersuami..kalau di izin Tuhan, saya mahu ada anak...kalau di izin Tuhan, saya mahu jadi isteri dan ibu yang baik...kalau di izin Tuhan...