Wednesday 21 September 2011

i feel like an idiot


I feel like an idiot...it seems like I’m the only one who wants to show my affection and care towards the other. The other, doesn’t seem to care my whereabouts, whether I’m home safe, whether I’m sick or not, whether it is okay for me to drive long hours to a place I’ve never been and arrive safely, whether I need the other to comfort me, to give encouragement to what I’m doing, give support to my decision, console me when I’m mad or sad... pat my head so I feel better...I longed to have all these...am I asking too much? I think not...if I can make effort, so does the other...it’s either you want to make effort or not...it shows how much you care...I’m not asking for a diamond ring, or a Porsche...I’m asking for an sms, ask me where I am, ask me how I’ve been, ask me whether I’m okay if I send messages that sound like I need you, ask me if you feel that I’m sick...am I the only one who’s feeling all this for you? I can feel it when you ‘re sick, I can feel it when you feel sad,  can feel it when you need a shoulder to cry on, I can feel it when you’re lonely, I can feel everything that you are feeling...but why not you? When your friends left you alone, it was me whom you turn to...you even said that I’m your best friend...and now, when your friends came back, you throw me away... You seemed to have abandoned the feelings that you have for me, your attachments towards me seems to vaporize...sooner, and it will all be gone...at that moment, sorry does seem to be the hardest word...